Strange Headspace

Doing this movie has been one of the coolest experiences of my life so far. It’s the closest I’ve ever come to living the life that’s been in my head for as long as I can remember. It feels right. Living at the Ranch Studios while filming has also added a strange summer-camp-like feel to it all. Being away from home, going through this experience, meeting all these incredible people, and playing a very intense and twisted person has somehow turned up my emotional sensitivity. I find that everything I feel at the moment, I feel very deeply.
I’ve been very introspective and pensive. Sometimes alone and yet somehow reveling in it. I’ve written before about how, often in my life, I’ve felt a general disconnect with the world at large, like I’m some kind of alien and just not quite the same as the rest of the world. There’s been some of that and yet also some very wonderful moments of connection. Sometimes this heightened sensitivity is invigorating and other times it brings a certain melancholy.
When I was much younger I always thought that if I got a “real job” besides acting or music that it would be either as a psychologist or a psychiatrist. I have a very analytical brain and I’m always analyzing motivations, actions and emotions trying to decipher the hidden code. I’m usually pretty damn good at it too. I think I have a pretty good understanding of of it all but sometimes there is still “magic” that I can’t quite reverse engineer. Part of me is endlessly frustrated by things I can’t figure out but I guess it’s always fun to have more mysteries to investigate too. I’m just bursting with a million things inside me right now. Interesting times.
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“Deadly Obsession” update

I finally have a moment to breathe and update here. I’ve been working pretty solidly since Friday on the new feature film that Larry and I are in, “Deadly Obsession”. I rode out with Larry Friday night thinking that I would be going back home since I had to film on “Henchmen” on Saturday. Then I got a call from the “Henchmen” director telling me that he was doing some rescheduling so I was free Saturday. “Deadly Obsession” used this to their advantage to schedule some of my scenes on Saturday. So far it’s just been me and Larry staying in the guest house. Since I had planned to go home, I didn’t really come prepared but luckily the Grr came and visited me on set and brought me some essential supplies. She happened to be there at the right time to watch me have my kissing scene in bed with my on screen wife.

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This is going to be fun

Larry and I went to the “Studio Estates” last night for some last minute rehearsals between me and the leading lady and for a cast/crew meeting for the horror/psychological thriller that we are starring in. We pretty much spent the whole night in a euphoric state of disbelief at how much fun this seems like it’s going to be. There are 5 “main” characters and Larry and I are two of the leads who have most of our interaction with each other and the leading lady. There’s a lot of really intense stuff between the three of us and each individual coupling (me/Larry, Larry/Zoe, Me/Zoe).
It was the first time I’d met Zoe and we immediately went into rehearsing some intense scenes. I was immediately impressed with Zoe. In addition to being a great actress she was so incredibly warm and open and I felt immediately comfortable with her. There was no awkwardness about just meeting and jumping into these scenes. We just got straight down to acting the best we could and working the scenes. I thoroughly enjoyed rehearsal. Between me, Larry and Zoe it’s going to be a great experience.
Everyone else in the crew seemed equally cool and we were looking forward to working with them all and getting to know them better. We were treated like stars. They’ll soon see through that charade! There’s actually a “star house” where the 5 main stars can stay (the studio is about 30 minutes away from me). I get the master bedroom. 🙂 One of the producers asked me if I would mind if Larry threw a mattress down in the master bedroom since there were only 4 bedrooms. It was a king size bed so Larry and I said we had no problem sleeping in the same bed since we’re practically brothers. And if a couple of hetero guys want to spoon, so what. There are also multiple jacuzzis. We already have plans to bring the PS2 and our guitar hero games and my guitar for real guitar playing. I don’t know how much I’ll stay out there since I don’t want to abandon my Grr but with the price of gas and some early call times I’m sure I’ll end up staying at least part of the time. I’ll have to get her to come out and stay with me some times.
All in all this looks like it’s going to be a really fun experience with a ton of great people. Hopefully this is just the first step in a long and successful career! My first paid film gig, I’m co-starring with my creative partner and one of my best friends as well as an absolutely amazing leading lady and a phenomenal cast and crew, playing a lead role that’s fun, sick, twisted, and intense.
Our condo is now 100% full of movie stars but that’s another story for the Grr to tell…

Whoa! Crazy day!

I was off with some friends helping them film a short film as an exercise in special effects and forced perspective (at one point we all ran and jumped into a helicopter; it just so happens that the helicopter was also 1/48 scale). It was quite a lot of fun and educational as we do these films at the house of a very knowledgeable film maker with lots of equipment and educational materials, not to mention a vast brain full of knowledge.
While we were there I received a telephone call. Through complicated machinations, I am now playing the role in the horror film that I was so bummed about not getting before. I am one of the lead roles, co-starring with Larry. I’m actually getting paid. It’s a meaty, twisted, fun, sick role. This looks t be a fun ride.

I am a golden god

I just finished finally Guitar Hero II on Expert. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to 5 star most of the songs on expert but at least I’m ready for the upcoming Guitar Hero: Rock the 80s, Guitar Hero III, and eventually Rock Band

Productivity!

I’ve had a sudden output of musical productivity lately which I’m quite proud of. First, my friend Hillary had this creepy tune and recurring nightmare she wanted to do something with so I had her sing the little tune in my home studio. I then took it and slathered a huge heaping of Danny Elfmanesque creepy weirdness on top of it.

Then my friend Chris asked if I could replace all the copyrighted music in one of his short films with my own original compositions so that he could submit it to a film festival and not get sued. Emulating songs is something I think I do particularly well. There are 3 songs in his film and they are each different in their feel and style. I finished two of them today and was quite happy with them.

*sigh*

So this is the life I’ve chosen for myself. The life of rejection known as acting. I really have to find a way to deal with it better. It’s been quite a roller coaster lately. On the upside, I signed with a talent agent who hopefully will get me lots of professional paid work once I get all my materials sorted out and sent to them. Then there’s these two stories of woe…

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It’s time once again to play…

“PICK MY HEADSHOT!”
Go here, and vote for your favorites! (I’m not sure what the thumbs up/thumbs down actually does but you can leave comments).
Of course, while I value all your opinions, the opinions of my talent agency take precedence. 🙂

And we’re baaaaaack!

Some of you might have noticed a slight interruption in my website service. This was because I had long ago stored an mp3 here for transfer. Somehow, some ass-hat found it and must have posted it on some mp3 sharing site or something because over one night it was downloaded many hundreds of times, thus using up all my allotted bandwidth for the month.

Worst phone number ever

I keep hearing these ads on the radio for concerts that give you the number of the ticket service to call if you want to order tickets. The number: 1-800-I-GET-TIX.
Seriously. Watch out for lyme disease.