30
Aug
2004
20:20

To quote the magic 8 ball…

“Outlook not so good”
As you may remember, I have some friends who work for a company that I really want to work for, in a department that I really would like to work in, in a career and industry that I would absolutely love to pursue. There were some job openings, and after hearing that I had applied, they put in a word for me to try and get me an interview. A few weeks went by, and I made a follow up inquiry, and they thought they might start interviewing in the next couple of weeks, and that I was on the list to be interviewed as far as they knew. About a month later I made another inquiry and found out interviews had been going on. They went and talked to their manager only to find out tht he had forgotten I was a recommendation, and that I did not make the but to be interviewed due to my totaly lack of industry experience, and the fact that another company had recently gone away and thus flooded the market with experienced folk.
This has hit me quite hard, even though I was trying not to get my hopes up. I feel absolutely gutted, and pretty much on the verge of tears all day. I feel totally trapped in a job I hate, with no foreseeable future other than going from one unpleasant job to another, forever slaving for the man due to the fact that regardless of what skills I possess, I don’t have anything to really show or prove that I am qualified for anything.
I am quite taken aback at how hard this has hit me. I didn’t realize how tight I was clinging to this hope to keep me afloat, and now that’s gone, and I don’t really have anything to cling to now. Just a general grayness overlaying everything I see now. I’m sure it will pass, but this is the worst I’ve felt in a long time. I hate wallowing in self-pity, and it bothers me when other people do it, and yet I can’t shake the funk. I see no light to look forward to at the moment.
Boo. Boo, I say. Cheery post, eh?

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7 Responses

  1. CosmicAvatar says:

    My sympathies. When an opportunity comes along that seems like gold, failing to fulfil it makes everything seem so much worse. All I can say to reassure you is that it was obviously never meant to be, sad though that is, and that you are destined for something else. I have faith that it will be something better.
    [hug]

  2. Jess says:

    They’re all fools who don’t know what they’re missing! You could take comfort in the fact that you won the wife lottery, though. Your wife is awesome. And she loves you lots.

  3. Annika says:

    Ahhh, crap. I’m sorry to hear that.

  4. Simon says:

    What Cossie, Jess and Annika said. Also, what I say: you are a cool person.

  5. Is it cuz I is transportationally challenged?

    On August 11, I had a job interview. I got the interview through a staffing agency, because having them do the searching for me while I focus on set design seems the most convenient way to fulfil both my obligations…

  6. Andy says:

    I can’t think of anything particularly up-cheering to say except that you’re better than that job, so I wouldn’t take it too hard that you didn’t get it.

  7. gill says:

    What more can I add?
    Folks above have said it all
    Hope things look up soon

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