Yesterday Jess and I went “window shopping” for a Toyota Prius. Afterward, I took her to the home builder place where she worked the afternoon as a “working interview” for the job she’s trying for there. We got there early and look ed at the model home they have which is, of course, totally decked out. So by the end of the day I was really feeling kinda bummed about not being rich and famous. I want a big fancy house and a Toyota Prius!
Then something dawned on me. Whenever I get these feelings, or when I feel dissatisfied with my place in life, it’s not really a longing feeling, but more of a missing feeling. I feel like a “has been” who once had it all, but now must struggle working for “The Man” to get by. It made me wonder if I had been a highly successful actor or musician in some past life or something (if you believe in that kind of thing).
Either way, it still sucks.
13
Oct
2004
9:21
Yeah, it sucks having to think about money and stuff so much.
I believe that, if I had past lives, I was a dog in at least one.
Careering along
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